DifferentBrains

Longing for things is one of the things that makes life worth living. Not getting it, but longing for it. It feels awful. Like it’s constantly jerking at your heart, or trying to suck your bones out of your body. But when you get your wish fulfilled, and it stops pulling, you feel happy at first, then you just feel empty. Until something new is pulling your heart. Why am i saying this? Lately something has been pulling my bones.

When i haven’t jumped on the trampoline for a while, i feel my bones aching for it. So i go jump, and afterwards i feel better. Then i tried wake boarding. And now it’s jerking my heart ten times harder than the trampoline does. It didn’t at first, but since i can’t go wake boarding whenever i want, like with the trampoline, the suction won’t go away. And it gets harder and harder. MANY times a day, i have to put my feet in position, put my arms in front of me, close my eyes, and remember what it felt like. I think about it all the time. Sometimes i forget to breathe, then I’ll end up gasping for air. i imagine all the things i want to learn. Picturing it in my head, how I’ll do it. 360. flip. I can feel it, in my body. See it in my head. I know how to. I just want to try it, to see if i can do it in real life. A part of me regrets trying the wake board. Then i wouldn’t feel so desperate for it. But on the other hand, I’d never trade that moment. I was a good moment.

Longing for things is one of the things that makes life worth living. Not getting it, but longing for it.

Just a quick Hi to tell you all that i’m alive and well :)

Have been to the inspiration week, and had a blast, will tell you more about that later :)

Now i’m headed for Geiranger :)

See you all around :)

*waves*

It’s weekend, it’s time off work… it’s wonderful… the sun aint shining, but its not raining so, i am thinking of taking a tour on my bike:)

It’s been about a week since i wrote here last time… the reason for this is that most of the days i’ve been working for 11-12 hours, each day… been kinda worn out…

Yesterday i saw the new movie called Mr Brooks… it was… Psycho… and exiting at the same time… i guess i kinda like that kind of movies, don’t like the “only” scaring kind.. but i like the thrill.. i guess they call it thriller cuz of the thrill… (dooh..) anyways. it was a good movie, if you like creepy movies… i guess people who usually like to watch horror movies would like it…  cuz it was scary…  smart, and scary at the same time…

And! my grand dad just got older… and for his birthday i bought this funny thing:

It’s a rackert.. yes, you can see that.. with batteries, no u cant see that…. the point of this thing is to swing it after eks. fly’s, bee’s or other annoying smal, flyin creatures… the press a button and ZAAAPP! they’re electrocuted:P very effective tho a bit… yea… you understand what i mean…

c”.)

I bought one for myself also… off course:p tihihihi… ZAAPP!!!

Here’s what i used to think:

Ugly teeth, pale, hate the angle between my forehead and my nose, too round, unexplaneably ugly if not smiling. that’s how most people think.

Here’s what i’ve learned to think:

Beautiful eyes, wonderful grin, amazing hair, an inexplainable glowing personality, that lit up my entire face. That’s how a few, lucky persons think. When you’ve learned to look at yourself with these kind of eyes, life will all of a sudden become much easier for you to bear.

Please help me boycotting the jante-law. I love you! Guess why..

This is the last of my pancake’s they were terrific, as always:)

And on the way back up to my room, i took these pictures.. i thought they were lovely:)

Much Love – Share Bear -

Well… since the titles on these blog’s of mine never makes any sense, and this is not going to make sense to you guys who are NOT on IRC, GET ON THERE!! irc.differentbrains.org -> #db (if you have mIRC click here!), i thought i’d make you guys guess what they are… or wait… much more fun to make you guess who.. when you find out what they are :) First gets 5 IK from Z :) that is, 5 IK’s for knowing what it is, and Five for the who, and five for the what…:) its a hard one… easy for eM, cuz he knows…

OK!  just a short summary of my day… i woke up! yes indeed i did… and my brother came up and told me that they were leaving, so i went down and met my grandparents, and we said bye to my brothers, a friend of mine and my mom. They are going to a place called Fredheim, in Kongsberg.  After that we went inside to eat.. it tasted good, not awesome, but ok.. it was food, and when you are hungry food is a good thing…
So, we went up to my ATV again, and fixed some parts and tuned it a bit, plugged in the oil hole, and filled it with oil, tightened the chain, and greased it with some kind of lubricate… it goes like never before:) and i like it very much… do you want to buy it? only thing missing now is the backlight… it sucks tho… cuz i bought one, but they sent me the wrong one… so here i am, with a backlight to 1020 kroner, witch i cant use.. -.-
Well!! after that i fixed the raid at my mom and dads computer… so now everybody’s happy:) and i can relax and enjoy my life…

Thanks for reading up again:) I’ll try to figure out more fun games:)

Some times, when times are not, and things not are things, and life just is what life is and nothing is very little, my mind gets, well, abnormal…

And so, this evening, it happened\is happening\are happening…

So, what did\does it do, the brain, you ask? well, it did this:

b.mp3

Sweet huhh? :)
But wait a minute your wise brains says, whatever happen to a.mp3?
Ehm, that my friend, is a fairly good quiestion, and one i just will ignore for the time being.. if you beg and beg, i might consider sending it to you, mayhaps; perbe.

And now, i’ll leave you with a stupid question i used to ask…
if 1+1 equals 3, what is 5? any good ideas?

ohh my, i just realized, i will never know:
if ($calc(1+1) == 3) what is 5
it seems, that i’ll never get to the question in the first place :(

heh, i just rememberd, a new phrase i came up with today :) Me and Standy beeing “Likely Different”.

And, lovingly, hungingly (oooh, i like that word) goodnight.

Yesterday was a fantastic day! WONDERBAR! It’s one of the best days i’ve had in a long time… really… took a sad turn at the end, but the good parts on the earlier part of the day was fantastic:) It all started with me waking, early as usual.. it’s because of work… when i work i have to get up early, and when i go to bed after a working day i always wake up very early… it’s wierd but it’s like my body is configured to wake up and go to work again:P

Point beeing! I wake up, sat around, just realxing until my dad cam along, it was bright and sunny, hot and sky clear!:) so we took our bisycles and went for a Roll:) the tour was from us, to “spilling”, further up “Audenedalen” up to “Konsmo”, past “Vigmostad”, and when we came to “Konsmo”, we went over the hill again, over to “Laudal” and then down, almost all the way to “Øyslebø”, and then back up where we live… the tour was 52.14 KM long, and we had a max speed of 64.4 KM\t, and an average of: 22.5 KM\t, and we used a total of 2 hours 21 minutes and 47 seconds…:) it was awesome=)

It’s a while since i’ve been out sycling because my wheels were… slingery.. so i had to straighten them up, and i did that on the day before Friday…. so i could be ready for a nice tour:)

After i came home i relaxed in the sun, almost getting burned om my chest:P later that evening i got a major headace, and got a bit mad at people… so… that’s a part we don’t talk about here:)

Bottom line is: IT WAS AWESOME!:) and i liked it a lot=)

Now i’ve just made some … ahhrg.. what the name… the thing you put vegetables and chips in… DIP! thats what we call it… and i put it in the fridge so that it’d get cold.. and then i am going to sit down and watch Spiderman 3….

Much Love

Today i’ve got some catching up to do… i havent been writing blogs for a long time, this cause of the sudden need for sleep and work… :) back in bizznizz ya know=)

So! Today i woke up at 04:45 and fixed myself, drove to work at 05:30, and was fit for fight at about 05:10… then i drove back and forth to kristiansand from mandal a couple of times before i had a break, and went around in mandal, with a little bus, just bringing people home, or wherever they wanted to go. when i finally came home i went to bed, slept for a couple of hours and now i am awake again!:) the whole week has been kinda like that… going to work early in the morning, coming home and beeing so tired having to sleep a couple of hours before i have to really go to bed to get sleep for the next day… but this day is different! the reason for this is that tomorrow is a day off for me!:) i am going to enjoy it a lot…

Today in my break i went to Intersport (a sport shop) and got my wheels back (for my bisycle) and just now, about two seconds ago i put them on my bike again… me and my dad are going to ride tomorrow i guess.. gonna be great=) i need exercise…:)

And.. Since i know for a fact that Windows Live Messenger is a very popular program I thought i’d help out with the very ugly and disgusting apparance of the program… here’s how you modify it to your need or wish…:)

1. (required) Download The Newest verison of MSN, if you dont have it. Link
2. (required) Download MESS PATCH! A patch that enables you to clear msn for unwated advertisement’s, and add optional features that are not included in the released msn version. Link
3. After you’ve downloaded the following two files you open the *.zip file from step two. run the exe file and go for english.. the setup is pretty self explainable… NB: Do not patch a msn that is already patched, it can cause errors…

Thanks for reading up!:) and btw, i LOVE that all of you guys are writing blogs here!:) GO SOLAR! GO BOLLA!! GO eM!!! GO GO GO:D

Yesterday was a quite nice day here at the camp… It was sunny and the weather was fine… This sunny day they’ve arranged a soccer cup.. In the first place i didn’t have any team to play for, but “Ozonlaget” said they needed a boy… The team wars actually a girl team, but if you wanted to play, you had to have at least one boy playing, and the same if the team was a boy team, then you had to have a girl playing… So, we played for fun and our slogan was like this: Power, Strength an Humiliation! … Actually we got to the semi-finals, something we did not expect at all! But it was fun… After that we jumped in the water to take a bath… The water was approximately 3.5 centimeters cold or so.. Then after the bath we went in the shower to get warm again, but as always the hot water was no more! Later in the evening there were some meetings, and a girl named Serina told her story about how she got a so called “Jesusfreak”, which is put in a positive direction her heart for God, and how she opened up… The story was very(!) touching, and she is to tell the continuing this evening… After the meetings we saw this movie called “Cannonball Run”, very funny and I’m sure many of you guys have seen it… Later on we just was out talking and the usual stuff before we went to bed…

I guess that’s all for now… Stay tuned for an update tomorrow :)

-Solar-