G’night mate… it’s late here, eM and Esther is here and we are all just sitting here, listening to music and chatting, surfing or whatever… getting ready for bed…
Lately i’ve been very melancholic, thinking and wondering.. not very out there and showing my apparent happy self. I would love to know why. These days i feel emptiness, want, and a search for something… I don’t know what, and i certainly don’t know how to get what i am searching for.
I often find peace in music, silence, nature, thoughts and other things that makes my mind wander away from the feeling of what i am searching for… Life is always a search for something more… If you find God, you will still search for what to do for god, if you find happiness with a person, you will still strive for work, children or other things that we humans care so much about. There is no end to what we want, and what we search, work and strive for.
I might be a pathetic, sad, slow and lonesome person, but i am a realist. That is, not overly positive, not always depressed, but a mix…
Thanks for bearing with me… it’s hard, and even harder to eat all the crap that i serve you…
Good Night and sleep well.. i know that i will….